Wednesday, August 18, 2010
So Long Summer Hello Reality
Soo its been quite sometime since I wrote...I've been on summer vaca and there is no internet access at the crib... I had so awesome things happen to me this summer & some not so awesome. Update I did not get a new job...but I am blessed with my old one..I've got two schools again...yeah no comment. In the beginning of the summer all I did was run, sleep, yardwork, eat... But as the summer wore on the weather became toooo hot for me to run & them my knee started fussing.. then my ankle... & now my feet! I'm like Lord can a sista get a break I'm trying to treat my body like the holy vessel that it is! I came to a lot of realizations this summer about my life and I've been letting God work through my stubborness & selfishness. God is soooo awesome... I'm just trying to be more like him each day... So I had hoped that I would get to go on maybe on date this summer...yeah that didn't happen. But I was kind of in an anti-social bubble yes just refer back to my summer activites listed above. Mom.... that was the buzz word of the summer...I wont say anymore God has been dealing with me about that..
Okay on to my crush... I've been praying to get over my feelings yeah that's not working... He is just the coolest guy I know.. & he has all of the qualities I would like in a sig nig. oh well I'm waiting on God's plan to unfold.. Well I gotta finish my lunch toodles...
Okay on to my crush... I've been praying to get over my feelings yeah that's not working... He is just the coolest guy I know.. & he has all of the qualities I would like in a sig nig. oh well I'm waiting on God's plan to unfold.. Well I gotta finish my lunch toodles...
Tuesday, June 1, 2010
Ready for Change!
So I didn't post after my last race... But I ran the whole thing! I have to post my pic I felt extremely dizzy afterwards but I was sooooooo proud! So now I'm running the three miles around my neighborhood no prob which means I need to take it up a notch. 7 weeks ago I couldn't & now I can! I am just amazed at what my perserverance & dedication is bringing me. I took like 30 seconds off of my time! I didn't expect to because I got soooo tired in the last mile. I didn't realize it at the time but my races were in the same week! My next race is June 12th The race for the cure in Downtown STL. I'm excited because it should be flat and since I've been training on hills this should be a piece of cake!
So off of racing news...I was praying one night and I was overwhelmed with how good God has been to me. I looked around my house and I was so grateful. I couldn't believe that I had practically rehabbed my house myself. I know that nothing is impossible with God! I cried because mostly all of my twenties were spent struggling with my job, weight, and destructive relationships. I've known how much God loves me & accepts me as I am! I wanted to change not because I felt i needed to change for to give God the glory. I love my job,but I feel as if my season there is over. I'm ready for a new adventure. We'll see if that is what God has in the plans for me. I have two interviews tonight so I'm praying & I hope you all will be as well. Deuces peeps!
So off of racing news...I was praying one night and I was overwhelmed with how good God has been to me. I looked around my house and I was so grateful. I couldn't believe that I had practically rehabbed my house myself. I know that nothing is impossible with God! I cried because mostly all of my twenties were spent struggling with my job, weight, and destructive relationships. I've known how much God loves me & accepts me as I am! I wanted to change not because I felt i needed to change for to give God the glory. I love my job,but I feel as if my season there is over. I'm ready for a new adventure. We'll see if that is what God has in the plans for me. I have two interviews tonight so I'm praying & I hope you all will be as well. Deuces peeps!
Monday, May 17, 2010
The Running Diva
I am so proud and excited to say that I am up to jogging (not running) 3miles! PRAISE THE LORD! Getting up early and hitting the streets has paid off. Each race that I complete I knock a few minutes off of my time! I've been jogging for 5 weeks now and I can see myself getting toned especially my legs, but they were already hot anyway. I'm wondering when I should attempt my first 10k I'll just take it slow... I don't want to put too much pressure on myself. I know that if I stay on the course that I’m on I'll reach my goals.
I was reading my journals from past years and I am disappointed to say that I have been struggling with the same issues for the past 5 years! I want to break free from this bondage and move on to bigger and better things that God has for me! I have let go and let God show me what he has for me. This so hard for me because I am a control freak, but God is truly the one in control so I just worry & get my panties in a bunch for nothing. I control nothing!
So my house is still coming along quite slowly.... I feel overwhelmed a lot of the time... I think did I take on too much (as I often do) I Love my house & I thank God for it. I just get frustrated. I love the fact that my house is so me... the house it has awesome structure but there is work t0 be done on the outside... it still looks great but there is so much that I want to do with it. The inside of the house has gotten a total overhaul I'm still working on it but everything is mainly where I want it to go, organized, but still a little messy, colorful, expressive, and unique. All of this is the essence of me. I look forward to summer vaca because It will be a time for me to work on my house & train for my races! Yay!
Pray for my training I’ve got another race coming up Saturday! I hope to do BIG things!
I was reading my journals from past years and I am disappointed to say that I have been struggling with the same issues for the past 5 years! I want to break free from this bondage and move on to bigger and better things that God has for me! I have let go and let God show me what he has for me. This so hard for me because I am a control freak, but God is truly the one in control so I just worry & get my panties in a bunch for nothing. I control nothing!
So my house is still coming along quite slowly.... I feel overwhelmed a lot of the time... I think did I take on too much (as I often do) I Love my house & I thank God for it. I just get frustrated. I love the fact that my house is so me... the house it has awesome structure but there is work t0 be done on the outside... it still looks great but there is so much that I want to do with it. The inside of the house has gotten a total overhaul I'm still working on it but everything is mainly where I want it to go, organized, but still a little messy, colorful, expressive, and unique. All of this is the essence of me. I look forward to summer vaca because It will be a time for me to work on my house & train for my races! Yay!
Pray for my training I’ve got another race coming up Saturday! I hope to do BIG things!
Wednesday, April 28, 2010
All Moved in Legally!!
So yeah I've been super busy.. & I don’t have internet access at the crib (trying to save$). So Since that last post so much has happened! All good.. all good. I have been trusting that God was going to work out the problems in my house & he did. If you pray God will open doors and place the right people on your paths! You Better Praise Him!
After I tabulated the results I slept on the floor/air mattress for 16 weeks! It wasn't that bad, but I totally thank God for my bed! There were times when I would just cry because I missed sleeping in my bed and sitting on my couch & the whole rehab process just seemed never ending. I prayed and thanked God anyway! It’s my house so I was sleeping on MY floor! Anything worth having is worth working hard for.
I became conditionally legal on March 8th and totally legal on April 8th. The boys got to come home. It was and has been a difficult adjustment for them as well as for me. I had grown accustomed to them not being there. The unpacking is sailing along quite smoothly. My vision for my home is becoming a reality! Yay!
I prayed that I would get that retaining wall taken care of for under $1000 and he came through! I had awesome friends come over and help me clean up the 3 years worth of yard waste in my yard. I love all of them dearly for allowing God to use them as a blessing to me. I still get choked up when I think about the how supportive they were throughout the whole process.
I’m not done with the house, and I’ll probably never be but it is sooooo fun getting it the way that I want it. Okay okay enough about the house for now..
So I’ve decided that I want to start running (jogging) again. I was just disappointed in myself with how I don’t pay as much attention to my fitness as I need to. As I come upon my 30th year of life & my fourth decade on earth I want to take better care of myself. So I’ve been participating in races I have 2 under my belt so far and another on Saturday! (GOOOOO ESH!) I get better with each run and I have been disciplined to get up each morning & I’m out of the house by 5:30. I have at least on one a month scheduled until November. I need to find a December race I might have to travel to do one… my goal is to complete my first half-marathon @ Disney..The Princess marathon... for those of you who know me you know that this is a fitting race for my personality. You would also know that once I set my mind to something it’s already done. That’s just how I roll…sometimes that determination & perseverance is good, but I can think of times in my past where it wasn’t…hmmm.
So on to another subject…Dating yeah still not happening... I’m okay with that. I’m too busy with other things. I think when the situation presents its self I’ll be open. I have a totally different perspective about the dating scene now. Oh well I’m done…I’m gonna finish my lunch...Deuces peeps.
After I tabulated the results I slept on the floor/air mattress for 16 weeks! It wasn't that bad, but I totally thank God for my bed! There were times when I would just cry because I missed sleeping in my bed and sitting on my couch & the whole rehab process just seemed never ending. I prayed and thanked God anyway! It’s my house so I was sleeping on MY floor! Anything worth having is worth working hard for.
I became conditionally legal on March 8th and totally legal on April 8th. The boys got to come home. It was and has been a difficult adjustment for them as well as for me. I had grown accustomed to them not being there. The unpacking is sailing along quite smoothly. My vision for my home is becoming a reality! Yay!
I prayed that I would get that retaining wall taken care of for under $1000 and he came through! I had awesome friends come over and help me clean up the 3 years worth of yard waste in my yard. I love all of them dearly for allowing God to use them as a blessing to me. I still get choked up when I think about the how supportive they were throughout the whole process.
I’m not done with the house, and I’ll probably never be but it is sooooo fun getting it the way that I want it. Okay okay enough about the house for now..
So I’ve decided that I want to start running (jogging) again. I was just disappointed in myself with how I don’t pay as much attention to my fitness as I need to. As I come upon my 30th year of life & my fourth decade on earth I want to take better care of myself. So I’ve been participating in races I have 2 under my belt so far and another on Saturday! (GOOOOO ESH!) I get better with each run and I have been disciplined to get up each morning & I’m out of the house by 5:30. I have at least on one a month scheduled until November. I need to find a December race I might have to travel to do one… my goal is to complete my first half-marathon @ Disney..The Princess marathon... for those of you who know me you know that this is a fitting race for my personality. You would also know that once I set my mind to something it’s already done. That’s just how I roll…sometimes that determination & perseverance is good, but I can think of times in my past where it wasn’t…hmmm.
So on to another subject…Dating yeah still not happening... I’m okay with that. I’m too busy with other things. I think when the situation presents its self I’ll be open. I have a totally different perspective about the dating scene now. Oh well I’m done…I’m gonna finish my lunch...Deuces peeps.
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